Numbers from 10/03/2017, Notes from 10/06/17
I have shifted these entries later and later, to the point that this entry is three weeks late. No bueno. I will work on recording them earlier going forward. I also want to get to work earlier going forward. I'm really busy at work nowadays and I want to get more focus hours by being at work in the morning when fewer people are around. I also signed up to do a small dance at my company in two weeks. Going to dance practice in the mornings will be a good motivator for two weeks at least. Another incentive is that I will go home on time without feeling guilty.
I travelled and attended a family wedding last weekend. It was a nice ceremony and I enjoyed catching up with most of my extended family. At the same time I acknowledge that I have some less than pleasant family members who I don't enjoy interacting with, namely one cousin who excluded me from performing a dance with her and our other cousins on the wedding stage. Most of my family nembers treat and respect me like a capable adult, I'm learning to ignore the select few who do not.
A new Staff Software Engineer joined my team last month. She came from the same company I was at before I joined LinkedIn. She and I are the two women in our team. Having her around makes me feel less alone. I also had a six-month mini performance review with my manager today where we went through the company's performance guidelines and he told me I'm performing at my seniority level. I'm lucky to have a communicative manager. I've grown a lot in the past six months and I'm happy with myself for this. I have a good job paying an amazing salary where I can learn and thrive without burning out or completely trashing my health. I recognize I should be more confident in my abilities and push back saying I am exceeding expectations, I hope that will come with time.
I spent a lot of time with my parents over the past week and I've been pointing out and convincing them of small changes I'd like them to make. Often times my father says some small indiscretion aloud for everyone to hear instead of taking me or my sister aside to tell us individually. And my mother overcompensates for my father when he does this. This happened in August when my father commented, as he often does, that the skirt my sister was wearing was too short. That annoyed her, but she held it together. Then my mom commented that if my sister just got skinnier the skirt wouldn't expose so much of her thighs. That pushed my sister over the edge and she stayed holed up in bed the rest of the night instead of coming to that important dinner with my boyfriend's family. I hope my parents improve, I have more hope that my mom will than that my dad will change.
I lived with my boyfriend for over a week and it was glorious except for the last day when we fought and I stormed out. We made up that evening but I'm less confident in this relationship than I was in August. I've been having too many arguments with him and we've said a lot of hurtful words on both sides.
Other than that, I finally sent the last check from the old 401k to my new one. Yay for me I guess. Till next time! |